"And immediately the Spirit impelled Him to go out into the wilderness. And He was in the wilderness forty days being tempted ..." Mark 1:12-13
Yep. That pretty much sums up my last 40 days. I'm not equating myself with Jesus, but I've been in the P90X wilderness for the last 40 days facing nothing but temptation. Temptation to blow off workouts. Temptation to not push myself hard enough. Temptation to eat unhealthy foods. Temptation to eat too many carbs. Temptation to drink alcohol. Temptation to smoke cigarettes. Temptation to take the easy path.
P90X is physically demanding. Most of the time I'm walking around sore and achy. My back often feels like it is on the verge of injury. If that happens, I'm going to be out commission for a week
minimum. That would really suck.
Scheduling is also a challenge. I'm trying to raise two teenage sons, spend quality time with my girlfriend and fulfill the demands of my business while running my household. This means that some days I have to workout at screwball times like 5:30am or 10:00pm. When I listen to other people tell me why they can't workout, lack of time is
always the number one reason I hear, and I can't say I blame someone for not wanting to exercise at 10:00pm.
However, as I said in my post on
Day 38, P90X is not only benefiting me physically, it's doing something on the inside. By pushing myself hard, by digging deep, by
always showing up, I'm not
finding out what I'm made of, rather I am
creating who I want to be. I am getting stronger but I'm not referring to
muscles. What's happening to my body is just a
side-effect. The real change is occurring on the
inside. That's why I chose this silly spiritual-looking photo for the post. I'm doing a simple yoga chair pose and putting a helluva hurtin' on my legs. However, the effort, drive, discipline and determination required is quasi-spiritual at the same time.
I'm not a Christian but I do appreciate the wisdom the Bible has to offer. After Jesus spent 40 days in the wilderness, He was ready to face the biggest challenges of His short career and kick some serious butt. I've got another 50 days of wilderness ahead of me. By the time I'm finished, I think I'll be ready to kick a little butt myself. Whether that metaphorical butt-kicking is being a better father, rebuilding and growing my business, being a wonderful boyfriend, or just becoming a better person, I know that
everything will improve
along with my health. P90X is definitely making my candle burn a little brighter.